🪲 late night thoughts
hi, so it’s 1:50 am at the time of writing this. my brains all messy, of course. i find that in the depraved hours of time i always have the most thoughts. i didn’t do a lot today except worry, its hard to do anything but that lately. i tried to relax and force myself to do leisurely activities, like gaming and drawing. all of which has been nice. i can’t help but wonder how far the extent goes, when a person isn’t and is wasting time. it’s subjective, yet feels like a lot like a greater being is peering into me… wondering, why is this one doing such small, meaningless tasks? that time itself, is absolutely pressured and watched over. that i will constantly be under the pressure of existing correctly. i wish i knew what was good for me.